Going from Goa

my last post from CH4 - 151, BITS, Pilani - Goa Campus... just wanted to record it somewhere... will miss the place, the people, friends, my hostel, my room... thanks to everyone who made a difference to my life in the last 4 years... hope to come back here someday soon.

Dreams On Fire

My first real post may be... the past few days i have been feeling kinda strange... sure of myself, at the same time unsure of myself... this sem i have had a hell lot of free time... spent mostly sleeping, watching tv series (One Tree Hill, Prison Break), reading newspaper and studying... in that order

Looking back at the 4 years i have spent at BITS... it has been one hell of a journey... living away from home for the first time, far from the protective environment... i wasn't sure i would be able to survive the 4 years of engg... but now, when some 20 days or so are left for me to graduate as an engineer (though i hardly consider myself to be one)... i feel i have come quite a long way... from the reserved, confused, agitated person i was 4 years back... i am a much stronger, confident and independent person today... i don't consider myself to have learnt a lot academically or studies-wise... but the experiences that BITS has given me... experiences with people, places, situations... these have moulded my personality to a large extent... some of these experiences have been fabulous...great friends, who have been there for me through thick and thin... advised me, lifted me, supported me, encouraged me, chided me :) ... i cant thank BITS enuf for getting me to places and situations, so that i could become close to these people...
some unpleasant experiences too... there have been misunderstandings, fights, heartbreaks... each of them , teaching me a bit or two... am glad that i haven't come out weaker, if not stronger, each time...

today, when i am about to step into the hurly-burly of the corporate world... i cant even begin to imagine the kind of life awaiting me there... i hope its fun, eventful and enriching in every which way... i will miss my college, but more so, i will miss the bonds i made here, i will miss the people i met here, people who have left an indelible impression on me... i will carry with me the fond memories i have with each one of them... of the ones which turned unpleasant included... i guess this is what u call life.... cherishing the past, absorbing the present and looking forward to the future... on this note, i will end the post... below is the lyric of the song i am listening to right now... its what motivated me to write this post (dunno how)... enjoy d lyric... ciao.

You are my waking dream
You're all that's real to me
You are the magic in the world i see

You are in the prayer i saying
You are in my two my names

You are the faith that make me be live
Dreams on fire
Higher n higher

Passion burning
Ride on the path
Once for forever yours
In me
All your heart
Dreams on fire
Higher n higher


You are my ocean rage
You are my thought each day
you are the laughter from childhood games
You are things further down
You are where i belong

You are make me feel in every songs

Dreams on fire
Higher n higher
Passion burning
Ride on the path
Once for forever yours
In me
All your heart
Dreams on fire
Higher n higher

- Dreams On Fire (from Slumdog Millionaire, 2008)

..........

After a while you learn

the subtle difference between

holding a hand and chaining a soul

and you learn

that love doesn't mean leaning

and company doesn't mean security.

You begin to learn

that kisses aren't contracts

And presents aren't promises.

And you begin to accept your defeats

with your head up and your eyes ahead

with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child

and you learn

to build all your roads on today.

because tomorrow's ground is

too uncertain for plans

and futures have a way of falling down

in mid-flight.

After a while you learn

that even sunshine burns

if you get too much

So you plant your own garden

and decorate your own soul

instead of waiting for someone

to bring you flowers

And you learn you really can endure

You really are strong.

You really do have worth

and you learn

and you learn

with every goodbye, you learn...

- A poem by Veronica Shoffstall

Crash and Burn

Song : Crash and Burn
Artist : Savage Garden
Album : Affirmation

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door
And you feel that you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

'Cos there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breathe again
When you feel all aloneA
nd the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

I Will Survive!

"I Will Survive" by Gloria Gaynor

At first I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
And I grew strong

And I grew strong
And I learned how to get along
and so you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed that stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me

Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
Oh as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive (hey-hey)

It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
But now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
and now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me

Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to break me with goodbye
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
Oh as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive [x2]

November Rain

Heard the song "November Rain" by Guns n Roses... beautiful lyrics...

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same

'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain

We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain

But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away

If we could take the time
to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time... on my own
Sometimes I need some time... all alone
Everybody needs some time... on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain

Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one

IF

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too:
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream -- and not make dreams your master;
If you can think -- and not make thoughts your aim,
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same:
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools;


If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings,
And never breathe a word about your loss:
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"


If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings -- nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much:
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And -- which is more -- you'll be a Man, my son!


-- Rudyard Kipling